I keep on falling.....

and M keeps on pushing me down harder. We are going on day three of not speaking. Well, actually we had an argument this morning, on the phone. I really don't know what to do anymore about our situation.
I keep hoping that with time things will get better but they seem to be getting worse and he places all the blame on me. Did I ask for this? Do you really think I am having a party over all this?

I might post more in depth about all this later on, right now it is just too much to type up and I did alot of venting on the phone earlier, so my mind is still going round and round.