Just another post by the emotion queen

I guess I have always been kind of a loner, I don't let people in too easily and when I do, I usually end up hurt. I have let my guard down more as I have matured and gotten older but still, the inevitable happens.
Recently, I have been having a difficult time of things, I opened up immensely to just get it turned against me and I have been having a hard time recovering from that, along with other circumstances that are uncontrollable right now. I can't grasp hold of the rescue rope to pull myself back up where I should. I am just going through the motions at this point.

I suffer in silence, I guess I don't want others to know I am weak and feel the way I do. One very observant person, who is always in my life and I take for granted, has really been here for me. I don't know why I thought that she wouldn't or why I did not confide in her earlier, but I wish I had. I am so sick of blaming myself for everything. She has helped me see all sides of the box, with everything going on in my life right now. She won't read my blog and I won't tell her, but I love you T.